.. What has become of me ..

Thursday, July 31, 2008

current band: Arsis

gosh.. less than a week to submission date than i havent done a single thing on WDS. majorly screwed man!! oh well.. meh. hahah. well.. i guess im startin to get into the mood to mug. thats makes up for takin the day off today i hope. anyways, was readin on the CARC and i realise how far ive been laggin behind. time to buck up lyon!! anyways, was watchin the Ruins with my classmates last night. you guys should watch it if youre about to take the thrill and gore. seriously, the plot is somethin new. really liked it. hahah. will be checkin out Pathology tonight. Milo Ventimiglia will be one this one. from the looks of it and from the ratings, it looks pretty good. hope it wont disappoint.

*it has been awhile, yet no response. hmm alright, i get it.

20:07

Monday, July 28, 2008

song: when you look me in the eyes - the Jonas Brothers

omg.. looks like im skippin WDS tomorrow. damned assignments!! i HATE it!! erghh.. anyways, i find that my mind and feelings are like seriously messed up.. what the heck is wrong with me.. this isnt the way that i usually am.. ive got to make up my mind..

*i'll wait for you, but i cant wait forever..

22:38

Sunday, July 27, 2008

song: in and above man - Moonspell

i think ive been thinkin too much these days. i guess thats the reason why ive been so tired.. mentally tired.. i just dont understand whats happenin. im tryin my best to.. but just when i thought i know where everythin is headin, i have to find out somethin.. she asked me not to wait, told me that shes not worth the wait. and this isnt the first.. why does all these things that i wait for always never fail to end up a nightmare.. arent things suppose to get better if we wait patiently? a friend once asked me, "am i really that unlovable?". im startin to think that too.. am i really that unlovable?

*im always standin behind, blocked by people who always stand out.. even when i try my best, theres always someone who gets the better of the things that i wish for. why is that? am i that insignificant?

12:24

Friday, July 25, 2008

song: cater 2 you - Destinys Child

cant believe ive been so busy that i dont even have the time to do a short update. well.. this past week has been a real rush. IISO reports werent done, CARC presentation was in a mess. im just surprised that at the end of the day everythin turned out pretty alright. yep.. got to meet N for a little while on wed. hmm looks like i have work later on.. sighh.. feelin so darn lazy to go..

*somehow, i just feel that you feel everythin was a mistake..

11:53

Monday, July 21, 2008

feelin: lost

today wasnt anythin special really. went down to downtown east to help set up everythin for irahs birthday BBQ. got to see all of her bestfriends again after such a long time. didnt stay for long cause i had to meet up with martien and his family. so i rushed off and yah.. it was a hell long trip to town from pasir ris. hahha.. met them and we had dinner at sakae sushi. i felt so bad about the dinner and the movie. ): martiens dad paid everythin for me.. sighh.. they were tellin me to go to australia with them in 4-5years time. temptin.. i guess i'll consider it someday.

for the past few days, ive been thinkin about friday.. its definitely somethin i'll never forget. im feelin really happy but confused.. maybe i guess i gotta have a little patience and give it a little time..

*ive made my sacrifices, and now im waitin for you..

00:13

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

song: always be my baby - David Cook

today was a pretty rush day. ran to SAS like first thing in the mornin to collect my Olevel cert and testimonial. all the teachers say i changed alot. hahah, must be the hair i guess. anyways, went to school with kevin. school was alright, except for the bad stomach ache i had. hmm peggy yeo spoke to me about my results, i guess i should buck up like seriously.

anyways, the main event of today is irahs birthday!! HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!! hahah. met her at kembangan station and rushed to cityhall for her surprise. it was pretty funny how she didnt realise what her surprise was until someone came to ask if we wanna have a ride on the SG flyer. hahha shes so darn funny. we took a few pics on the flyer. she forced me to take a pic with a kid who was on it too. so weird!! pfft.. anyways, we went over to marina square to catch Hancock. actin, effects were all great. lousy plot. but i still like it though. the cinema was freakin cold!! i swear i was goin numb. hahha. well we sat down and talked for a little while, it was a little awkward but it was all good. mhmm. hmm sent her home and yep, now im back home on my bed. heh.

*it was definitely awesome!! i just realised exactly how much i.........

23:57

Friday, July 11, 2008

song: california - Phantom Planet

really, im seriously tired.. ive never felt so tired in my life. but i cant sleep tonight. ive got a proposal to write up thats due lyk 9 hours from now. gotta do some dumb drawings and shit.. sighh.. anyways, today has been a really stressful day. was rushin for my java programmin cause it f*cked up on its own. had to do a lot of last minute edittin.. i was serious short fused today.. sighh.. oh yah, i bought a present for her today. a dress. i really hope she'll like it. it was funny how people looked at me when i took the dress. hahha.. oh well.. i guess id better get started on my proposal. no slp tonight..

*theyve been tellin me that it isnt worth it.. but i still hung on.. dont you see how much you mean to me? sighh.. right now, i really need you the most..

00:42

Friday, July 04, 2008

pretty, if the sun wont shine
i'll be coming out to meet you
i'll be there to make you mine

pretty, if the rain will pour
i'll be knocking at your window
i'll be begging you for more

it is as if youve come along too soon
and im trying to fit you in
but i cant seem to find the room

cutie, if it all falls through
we can piece it back together
i can learn to trust you too

youre just too good to lose and cant refuse
so dont make me choose between the two
and burn up in here, in my atmosphere
dont you know who you are?
youre my shooting star

pretty teach me wrong from right
cause in love there are no answers
and in life there is no light

pretty, if the sun wont shine
now youve come this far to meet me
and i know, i know youre mine

*as much as i dont wanna admit it.. i do miss you..

12:32

Thursday, July 03, 2008

mood: confused

hello. i must say today has been sort of a last minute day for me. planned to not go for lessons but i ended up goin for all of it. rushed some last minute work for IISO. man i seriously dont like that subject. anyways, im kinda freaked out about my CARC lab teacher. i dont know, i just think hes weird.. oh well.. i joined nai and her friends after class. we just chilled out abit. we both got pretty annoyed with somethin.. i was more upset than annoyed actually. but hey, i tried my best with everythin so yah, theres nothin much i can do. hmm met up with the usual gang and nat and her friends. we had a few drinks somewhere in OT cause we kinda got kicked out of Chips. i swear, im really scared of trannys. like, seriously.. hmm after laughin at some trannys and makin friends with 3 black men, we headed to toapayoh to chill out a little bit. omg there was this cat that came along, it was so darn cute, friendly too. but it loves me more than the other. heh. yah.. well, i guess im back in my bed.. screw "home sweet home". "room sweet room" sounds better (:

*i dont know how much more i can take this.. treat me better than this, please..

00:19

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

song: love in this club, part 2 - Usher ft Beyonce & Lil Wayne

i know i havent been bloggin much. guess ive just been so busy with work, school and my life. i must say, work was pretty good. i get paid, i dont need to spend cash on food because its provided and i get to get my mind off many things. the only problem is that i dont get to talk to my friends that much anymore. anyways, school has been alright. i didnt go to school today actually. was too tired.. met the guys from class 3ST in sec3. we had dinner and just caught up. i used my headband and they all called mea girl. kinda annoyin, but i guess thats somethin i miss about sec3, all the nonsense and stuff. we played a little pool bfore headin back.

yesterday was pretty tirin and worryin. a friend of mine got drunk because of some guy. she got so drunk that she just knocked out. so that guy and i looked after her. i felt like questionin him, but i guess its not my position to. honestly, look at how hes handlin the situation, i didnt really like it.. anyways, i cant help but feel really sad for her. i really hope someone will treat her right, she had enough of all these.. thats all she really needs. sighh oh well..

to that friend: hey you. just to let you know, youre not alone. you still have people who cares for you. so dont give up ok? you'll be fine. things will be better, i promise you. and you know how i am with promises. so hang in there ok? (:

*we're here together, so this must be something special. 'cause you could be anywhere you wanted but you decided to be here with me. no coincidence, it was meant to be..

23:30