.. What has become of me .. <body>
About Lyon

filled with nonsense
gullible
very lazy as hell
loves to eat but always lazy to
loves music and my guitars

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Wishes

A new Dean guitar
My own house
A car



My History

February 2006
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Thursday, May 29, 2008

mood: not too good..

ok, im like stuck in PRSP lab lessons right now and im seriously bored as hell. i feel like goin home, i really need a recharge. but i doubt thats possible, with all the tests comin next week. sighh.. i just really tired.. i cant even enjoy myself ith my classmates today.. its hard to smile all of a sudden.. gosh, i sound so depressed.. ergh..

i dont know why im startin to feel it again.. why cant i get over this.. sighh..

14:07

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

ROARS: I NEED A F-ING BREAK!!

i just got home, thinkin that maybe i can chill for today but no.. i just had to find out what to do for IISO.. and guess wat, 4-5 freakin pages on Human Resources Department. how the hell am i suppose to do that.. madness seriously.. sighh.. another late night again.. anyways, on the brighter side of things.. i didnt get screwed by peggy for my last minute WDS proposal. thank goodness.. and i might start workin at a restaurant in Downtown East. yep aint gonna be broke anymore. woohoo!! hahah. alright, i better go take a bath. need to wake myself up, was fallin asleep on the bus. IISO.. sighh..

20:31

Sunday, May 25, 2008

state of mind: a freakin mess!!

another borin sunday. as if its not bad enough, still have projects and homeworks to do. plus the freakin heat.. nice combination huh.. well.. im just in a mess right now. so many things in my head. as usual, negative things.. when will things work out for me..? when i try hard enough?? havent i tried hard enough already..? im just so tired with everyone pushin me aside.. again and again.. i just dont understand..

19:08

Saturday, May 24, 2008

somethin funny: i was runnin while eatin char kuay teow.

ok, seriously i need to cut down on my drinkin. ive been drinkin so much. sighh.. just went out with the guys to east coast for drinks again. thank gdness i didnt drink much. i got a little high but i was alert enough. ezra was there too, drinkin with his class. funny as hell!! he was talkin funny after 1 can of barons on an mpty stomach and the 2nd one made it worse. hahhaha. anyways, luckily dev paid for sathishs ride home, or else i wouldnt know how to get home.

hmm jammin was pretty good though. we ran through our whole gig set and it sounded pretty awesome. just a pity JTs pedals have to give way.

you know, ive got people comin up to me and tellin me things about my ex. all of it are things like they saw her out with another chinese guy. its like they want me to do somethin about it. no, theres nothin i can do and i dont wanna bother no more. its her life, its her choices, not mine.

anyways, away from all that.. i just wanna say i havent been so happy for a pretty long time. someone should know way. heh. (:


*i wish we werent so far apart..

10:16

Thursday, May 22, 2008

*i did, and the outcome was shockingly pleasant :D

23:21


song: when you look me in the eyes - Jonas Brothers

gosh.. im feel like im just gonna fall apart. sighh.. it has been a busy week in school. tomorrow we're suppose to have an off day but we still gotta make the effort to go back to finish out projects. damn.. oh well, at least jammin wont be affected.. besides, its just a little more than a week before our gig. im pretty excited about it, a little nervous at the same time. hope it'll be awesome. anyways, im feelin really emotional about things today.. i have no idea why.. and im so darn confused about some things.. erghh.. why must things be so tough for me to make my decisions..


*should i just tell..?

21:28

Friday, May 16, 2008

ROARS: POPPIN HOT POPCORNS FOR SALE!!

hahaha. lemme explain that.. today was CCN day in school. its an event where every freshy class have to sellin things to get funds for the needy people in the school. and as you see, we did popcorns. i shouted so much, now my throat hurts, i bit my lips on the inside 3x and im tired as hell. but it was great fun!! mhmm.. omg!! i saw that really pretty girl in school today, i saw her at burgerking on wednesday the other time. AHH!! so pretty!! haha. kkz, i better move on. anyways, everythin went smoothly although we made a small lost. hmm rushed back home to change and out again to meet Lia for coffee. it was a little awkward to be honest but it was really nice. and i got my coffee, yay!! hahah..


*sittin there today made me think about the wonderful times with her.. i know that it can never happen again.. now i can only hope to dream about it again and again..

22:23


mood: tired, confused

had a long day in school today. lessons were pretty much borin but it was nice to have the usual people around to make school life interestin. theres nothin much to update but i dont know.. just felt like it i guess. i feel so tired of everythin for some weird reason. i know ive been really negative, but yah.. i cant help it really.. sighh.. anyways, jammin was pretty successful apart from us bein unable to jam We Will Rise by Arch Enemy. had dinner with jiating and waisun before headin back to TNT to watch Deus Ex Machina jam. theyre awesome as usual, funny as hell. we sat down and had coffee and a good laugh about random things. hahha, i swear, hangin out with them is darn fun. and now, im dead tired..


*its back again and im tryin not to break.. help me..

00:06

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

song: breathe - Michelle Branch

im home and im dead tired.. which is weird because i had along sleep, kinda skipped lectures for that. heh. anyways, met up with mariam for lunch at burgerking. im gettin a little sick of it actually. been havin it so much. anyways, as listenin to mariams true ghost stories and im pretty freaked out now. man.. how can somethin like that happen.. scary stuff :S hmm i guess im gonna have an early night. its gonna be a long day in school tomorrow.. hmm im cravin for some coffee now.. hmm maybe a java chip.. Mmmmm..


*somehow.. i feel everyone is against me.. like they dislike me..

17:45

Sunday, May 11, 2008

song: lelaki ini - Anuar Zain

the pass few days as been pretty whacky. can you believe that we got harassed by a freakin tranny. for those who dont know what a tranny is, its a shemale. so yes, it is f*ckin disgustin!! i dont even wanna think about it, still recoverin from e shock of it. yuck.. anyways, we hungout all night on friday. you wont believe the things that can happen in one night. we made friends with a drunk man. witnessed a fight. and i tink 2 girl may have hinted me to join them in a toilet, which i didnt. dont worry, im not those kind. hmm and yah, finaly crashed at tharens place. oh yah!! we caught Antiht from Thailand at a gig last night. shit!! theyre freakin awesome. and the vocalist is so hot!! tried to take a single pic with her but it kept endin up as a group pic. hahaha oh well. made new friends anyways, pretty awesome stuff.

weird dream last night.. i had a dream about this girl im eyecandyin.. it was a pretty good dream.. but why do i feel so.. i dont know.. confused and uneasy inside.. maybe i still cant let go..


*lelaki ini yang selalu mencintamu. selalu, tanpa ragu. lelaki ini yang selalu memuja, hanya dirimu. yang bertakhta dalam sanubariku, sanubariku. aku yang mencintakan mu, hanya dirimu

14:30

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

movie: What Happens In Vegas


just got home from town, was watchin a What Happens In Vegas with the classmates. its sucha good movie, you guys should really watch it!! i wouldve enjoyed it more though, if that hyper-active lady on my left wasnt laughin so crazily. anyways, school was pretty slack. nothin much happened really. just hung out with the usual. n OH, i had a talk with buddy-wafah!! it has been so long.. yah.. oh yah.. i saw my eyecandy again today.. but meh, just shes an eyecandy.


*strange enough.. i found myself missin you again.

22:23

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

song: how do i breathe - Mario


i woke up 30mins earlier this mornin, because of a dream i had.. i was shocked, really. it felt so real.. the touch, the emotions, EVERYTHIN.. but no, it wasnt a good dream.. anyways, i did a mini operation on my really swollen toe. yes, the in-grow toenail one. i managed to get the problem out, so it stopped bleedin already and now i hope it will be alot better. yah.. school was long but pretty alright. tried for a job at CoffeeClub Harbourfront. i really hope i get the job. i seriously need some extra cash right now.. oh well..

18:40

Monday, May 05, 2008

song: fields of gold - Olivia


its already 1.36am, i gotta wake up at 8, be in class by 10 and im still wide awake.. so many thoughts are runnin through my head. there are certain things, i know i shouldnt be thinkin about them anymore.. but i just cant stop.. i just dont understand.. how the hell did things change so fast and end up like that.. i really dont.. those whom i thought i knew so well, turned out to be someone else suddenly.. why.. how did this happen..? i dont know how to continue anymore.. im really confused.. im gonna sleep.. maybe all these will be gone after i open my eyes.. i really wish..


*tired..

01:35

Saturday, May 03, 2008

i just got home and i had a scoldin from dad. now i really hate it this house. i dont even wanna call it home anymore. this family so close to bein screwed and they dont know it. dad, you dont even know half of the shit i know and you should be grateful that you dont. i swear, i hate this house, the only place where i feel safe is my room..


*i hate it here.. i hate my life.. nothin ever goes right. just when i thought i have that one good thing, i lost everythin.. i hate it so bad..

22:16


song: Home - Dream Theatre


i havent been updatin much.. just been so busy with my life.. so busy with school, friends, and family.. those of you who ive told about it, you would know.. i just cant believe that i actually found out such a thing.. im still stunned by the whole thing.. its funny that its just when i turned 18, i have to carry sucha burden on me. a secret i dont wanna keep, but i have to. i cant destroy my family, i will never..


*i really wish you were here, to comfort me, to be by my side again.. but you arent here.. its not like what it use to be.. its so.. different.. you are so different. i will get over this..

13:20