.. What has become of me ..

Monday, November 26, 2007

feelings: down
current song: With Bitterness and Joy - Sentenced

*exactly 3 more months to 2 years.. but no, you wont be there..

22:15

Sunday, November 25, 2007

feelings: confused, down
current song: Fields of Gold - Olivia

i dont really have the mood to blog.. but meh.. i guess it'll keep me occupied. well ive been spendin a lot of time with my new PSP. its pretty awesome. i hope i dont get bored of it.. or else it would be a waste of money. went around lookin at handphones with my mom for the sisters bday. found one, guess we'll be droppin by the shop soon. went to do some shoppin at the supermarket. yah.. had a bbq today. i think ive been eatin way too much. better workout tomorrow.. probably will watch a movie later before i sleep.. hopefully, i'll hav a gd sleep..

*i just dont understand.. are those words referred to me.. or someone else?? i feel like everyone is lyin to me.. im gettin doubtful.. i dont know what to believe.. i wanna cry.. but whats the point.. there wont be anyone here for me.. no one will..

01:51

Friday, November 23, 2007

feelings: relaxed
current song: Angels Holocaust by Iced Earth

hello from Kuwait!! just arrived yesterday mornin(well, afernoon in SG). yep, the flight wasnt as long as i thought it would be. thank goodness no one was sittin beside me durin the 2 flights, more space for me. heh heh. stopped at Dubai for a flight transit to Kuwait. Dubai airport was pretty amazin. yep yep. went for a thanksgivin dinner last night. it was pretty borin cause i was the only teen there, but the food was good. tasted garys wine, it was good, but pretty strong. yah.. was really tired and was havin a little bit of a jet lag.. ahh well, at least i had a good sleep!! hahah. oh well.. i'll update when somethin interestin happens. so.. until then, CHEERS!!

*i wish you are here with me right now..

15:18

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

feelings: happy
current song: kiss kiss - Chris Brown ft. T-pain

today was really fun. had the trainin for Grad-Night Saint Hunt. we went through the different parts, steps, poses and stuff. pretty cool stuff, learnt quite abit. hahha. yah, it was fun.. i gotta get a blazer though, guess i'll hav to rent one.. yep.. oh we had this coach whos gonna be one of e hosts on Grad-Night, shes suppose to be takin part in the Miss Singapore pagent thingy if im not wrong.. she really pretty. she got the guys all excited. ahem.. hahah. yah.. its gonna fun but i hope dont mess up on the actual day. oh yah, i spoke to nailah last night, whom i havent spoken to in AGES. she changed alot.. hmm its a good thing i guess. yep yep. and to wafah, cheer aite buddy!! aite then, gonna go now. will update bout thurs, might even put up some pics and vids. hahha. cya then!!

20:11

Sunday, November 11, 2007

feelings: upset & tired
current song: symphony of destruction - Megadeth

i just dont get it, why do all of you tell me the same thing.. its not like its easy.. its not like i dont know.. its not like i want to be like this.. THIS IS ME.. i cant move on just by sayin i will.. i cant forget and give up everythin just like that.. im just not like that.. and if all of you are thinkin im not tryin, try bein me for a day.. im really tryin..

*this is the time i need you so much.. but i will bite my lip and hold it in.. i dont want to see you sad again..

19:45

Saturday, November 10, 2007

feelings: neckache, down
current song: the river - Sentenced

Deafcon 7 was pretty good. quite a few good bands played. but nothin beats Oshiego my frienz. hahha. headbanged til im havin neckaches again. ahh well.. i guess i gotta bear with it again. hmm got to meet our new drummer, prabs n the Oshiego guys. pretty awesome, we took a few pics but sadly theyre not with me yet. shall upload it tomorrow if i get it. yeps..

*i told myself i will bear with it.. but here i find myself missin you so badly..

21:29

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

feelings:
current song: always - bon jovi

the Os are finally over. cant believe i dont have to study anymore. well.. i juz hope i make it through to a good course in poly. anyways, i meet her today. we went to marina square to watch The Gameplan, played pool and bought my gradnight clothes. The Gameplan is good, really nice story line. we played pool, it was fun. and did i mention? she beat my ass at daytona. hahha.. but yah, she is good at it. we sat down at boat quay and had a talk.. about us.. i guess its really time i backed off. honestly, i dont know if i really can.. but i said i would try.. i dont want to see her sad anymore.. i really dont.. because i love her.. if doin this will make her happier.. i will do it.

*you are the best thing that ever came into my life. and i will keep those memories close.. i wont go back on my word.. maybe fate will one day do its magic on us again, like it once did.. take care and keep that beautiful smile on your face. ily..

22:10

Sunday, November 04, 2007

feelings: headache
listenin to: I Need a Hero(Bonnie Tyler cover) - Graveworm

well well well.. just another 2 more days, and im done!! cant wait man.. yah, been really tryin to squeeze as much as i can on SS into my head. i guess thats whats givin me a headache. ahh well.. after tomorrow, things should go easy.. at least thats what i hope. sighh i really have to do well for SS.. i cant afford to fuck this up too.. need it to pull up my humans marks.. sighh.. i need you so much right now..

*dreamt of you last night.. it felt so real, i was really happy.. until i woke up..

19:29

Thursday, November 01, 2007

mood: lazy

hello. gosh, tomorrows my physics paper and im still so darn lazy to mug. should force myself. hmm wel the past few days has been pretty alright i guess. just a little worried for my results. i hope i'll do well.. anyways, just another 5 more days!!

*when that day comes, will you come back into my arms again?

17:59